I miss you and the way you sigh when we talk on the phone,
how you repeat certain phrases until they lose their meaning and the way you tell me every little detail of your life and I listen closely, trying to understand you better.
How you put your sillyness aside and become so vulnerable when you tell me secrets of your family.
The way you once talked in Tagalog to your aunt and I forgot to tell you how beautiful it sounded.
How we always end up talking for hours and the way you said “now I also know your sensitive side” as I cried over the phone and you didn´t really know what else to say.
The way you still wanted to dance when you were drunk although you couldn´t even stand anymore and fell asleep moments later.
How we spoke for the the very first time on a field trip because I walked next to you and you just started to say something.
The way I´ve come to appreciate you more in six months than others in 5 years, but there is no explanation.
And although you will never read this, I just want to let you know that I´m on my way to figure out that I´d rather be your friend forever than your boyfriend for any shorter amount of time. I guess I am still in love with you, but I´ve begun to change, slowly.